Happy kids drink blood, irony.

School today was very very good. Double Math passed in a flash. But i didnt get anything in the end. Ohwells, i'll just figure out. Recess was so, high. HAHA, i swear Meishi's so mean. Insisting i'm bimbo and all that. Tskk. Then Jiaher just kept laughing. Oh god, I'm so upset. I dont know whats a doumiao. And cos of that she called me a bimbo, like wth right? I'm so not bimbo! Like ew, who wants to be bimbo mann. So tell me, whats a doumiao? Tag my board okay, i really dont wanna be called a bimbo cause of that. HA.

There's bloody red house cheer tmrw. Bloody cause it's red house. Hah, no. I'm.so.not.excited. And why? Because Auyong's not joining. I swear she's such a idiot. I'll never persuade her to join. Rahh, and since the people i like arent joining, and well viceversa, I'M SO RELUCTANT. Samp and I will reconsider. But i think without us red house will die, cos the majority are secones, and i only think they can fly. And not base, so how? Tell me how, now. HAHAHA.

Steph Liau, Shalyn, Aly, and Rachael are such funny people. Alyssa is so wierd. She's in love with her ruler and caresses it. Like what is that?! Oh god, some one wake her up. (Hello Aly, i know youre gonna kill me.) It's the last day of Jan! Time flies, i'm scared. Cos i'm supposed to lose weight by CNY, but i'm not doing anything about it. Ohwells, hello fatso. What's for supper today!?

I'm pretty busy this week, Mon, Wed, Fri, Sat, Sun are gone. ):

Your hands are mine to hold.

I have loads to rant about today. I hate teachers, I'm fully aware how immature this sounds. But i'm too fuly aware, how immature teachers are. OH GOD, SAVE ME NOW. Laoshi spent about half a period on telling us to learn Tingxie(?!), I mean if she really wanted us to have Tingxie today she shouldve just made us learn on the spot or smth. I just think the whole half of the period used lecturing us was uncalled for, and for that matter, waste of time. See how much time wasted due to angst and immaturity? Hoho, i'm jolly good at this.

Then we had Science. Ms Au scolded us for laughing. Like what is that?! Omg, i swear she's so queer. I mean, we wouldnt have laughed if she didnt say smth funny right? Or i think she's just funny looking. I think i'm gonna be sued for this, cos it's Singapore and we get sued for everything. I'm talking rubbish again. But seriously, we just giggled. And who in the world doesnt know that Ij girls laugh the most, and loudest? Like, no one. But no doubt i learnt smth, Ammonia smells like the thing they put on my hair at the salon! Ew, stinkkyy stuff. But i betcha didnt know that right! HARHARHAR.

I had cramps during PE today. I felt like dying yknow. I had like blackouts every few minutes when i ran, so i started walking. :/ Everyone, if you see Marie Lee faint in school please dont let her die. Please catch her when she falls so she wont suffer a concusion. Thank you, god will bless you. : D That was just in case, now i'm so frail (I dont know why) there's any moment i can faint and i would like it if i had a concusion.

Result of the cramps and recovering cough, I didnt go for dance. Sam and I were waiting till 4 for Danceworks so we could go to the dancestudio. But at about four plus-ish we got tired and so we went home. Thus, i'm home! Oh god, i feel so retarded today. It's the cramps, I swear it's just the cramps. Marie isnt like this. Nopes, she isnt.

So we're on to forth week of school, and i think school so far just went by in a stressful surreal blur. All the subjects are manageable except! See, there's always an except. Except for Science and Chinese. I listen so hard for science okay. I just have absolutely no interest for Chemistry. Though i write so many poems about two souls chemically reacting into love. There's nothing else i love about Chemistry other than love. And apparently that sucks. Chinese is a bei(memorise) subject. Every year to pass chinese i memorise the way of writing the words and i'd be fine. But this year there's compre and it carries so many marks i could die to pass Chinese. Meanwhile i'll just keep telling myself 'Huayu cool!' and 'Da jia xu yao leng jing'. : DDD

I have to go to plazasing tmr to collect some Ipod charger thing. I have no one to go with, are you free Alyssa Lim Pei Ning? :D

Your hands are mine to hold.

Baby, come back to me.

#Plugs: Take that - Patience

Nat Kim and Lynette just left, i swear they're such funny people. We managed half of the proposal done, i guess i'll just help them finish up. It's afterall quite an easy task. And the rest of the time they were having fun with my accesories. Playing dress up and all. You see, we never really do grow up. Hoho.




I think lynette looks like a bimbotic astronaunt. HAHA.


They found this pictureof Meishi Bimbo Koon (haha) and I in my phone. During the hols i guess. It just makes me miss my holidays even more. Come on god, everyone needs a break! Not just a kitkat, but a breaaakkkk.

Dad's taking me shopping on tuesday after school, i dont know why. But ohwells, anything other than staying home for hmk. Like ew. Now i have to go and copy all the files from the old computer for my sister, cos my dad says 'She'll take for ever.' Well then i could too! It's just i'm being a nice and good sister, and i dont rely on my other sisters to help me with stuff. Oh god, irritant. : /

Will to survive.

Nat Kim and Lynette are coming over later today. To get our Science Proj done. I predict nothing will be done cos we'll always end up playing. Nehh, what a failure. I'm hungry now, and there's a chicken pie sitting in front of me at the dining where i'm seated, but i'm not allowed to eat it. It's the phlegm yall. ):

I'm still on medicaton yknow, and that sucks. Because it totally destroy your appetite for the rest of the day. Okay fine, it's pretty good for dieting, thing is i gave up on diets alr. Yknow how my favourite Dove comercial goes, Campaign For Real Beauty? Yes, good.

Two minutes have passed, i'm now eating the chicken pie. God says, "Never give in to temptation." How sinful.

DO NO GO TO THE XANGA BLOG.
I'm lazy and i have returned home to blogger. ET PHONES HOME! : D

I feel stupid again.

Emo boys, and Twohill haircuts.



Hello all, I like my title today, it's pretty cute. Afterall it so depicts everyone's lives now. This is gonna be a quick one. Sorry for not blogging for days, my schedules are jamm packed. Finished geog proj today, so it's like a load off my mind. Then i'll be missing out on Belly dance tmr, one way of destressing off my schedule, if i go mad, i wont be suprised myself. : D

Fun lunch the other day was fun btw, i think the Fun people make the unhappy side of me go away. : D I love you fun.

I like this picture cos i look like a retarded nerdy doof. Hah.

It's dinner with the family!

Cant live, if living is without you.

I feel like a tap. I cant stop sneezing, and tearing. This is what i call, a cold. Which btw, sucks. Pfft. Marie's fever has subsided, tremendously. (Like thank goodness.) And so, it's time to catch up on homework. Luckily Meishi will be able to pass me my hmk later or i'd be totally dead tmrw.

And i sort of can't talk nor eat now, my throat's hurting like whoaaa. So i've been just living on soup. Hah, what misery. But ohwells, who ever said eating was good. Lose weight marieeee.

Heartbreaks and Sorrows.

I'm still suffering from my fever. It sucks cos each time i stand up i get dizzy. Then i'd sit down again. I feel like some crippled. And all i've been doing is, to the doctor's, sleep, medicine, sleep, medicine. And the cycle goes on. Now my head still hurts. And everywhere i look is blur. God knows why.

I wanna get well! I wanna get well! I wanna get well! I wanna get well! I wanna get well! I wanna get well! I wanna get well! I wanna get well! I wanna get well! I wanna get well! I wanna get well!

It's the first time in my life i actually want to go to school. Oh god, this sucks. And i missed Techniques and Danceworks! on monday. I heard they've learnt new steps! Gahh. Then i was supposed to go and buy cloth with Isabel on monday. I was sick, and i couldnt join her. Now i feel so bad. Plus my share of the cloth? I have yet to pay. OMG, it sucks being sick.

And yknow the worse part of everything is that i'm craving for food, but i have no appetite. And seeing mum and gramps fighting over Eastern or Western medicine is better, makes me feel so bad. Yknow it's like two mothers screaming at the top of their voices in the living. It makes the walls vibrate.

Mum says i wont make it to school tmrw. How?! Then i'll be missing out on everything again. Pfft. And hmk! I havent done any, i'm screwed. And Science, Geog projects, Dancewroks! preparations, and DNT. Ah, i'm.so.dead.

I'm craving for milo dinosaur, see what i mean?

Just so you know.

Pe tmrw! Eew, I'm like so worn out. Pe sucks, esp when we have to play ball. I'm ball-phobic. I HAVE TO LIKE CARRY THE BALLS AROUND, EE. Not in that sense, but okay nvm. Then there's science. And tingxie! Omg, i never EVER learn tingxie. I'm such a failure i swear, yeahh all the rubbishy resolutions about studying hard. I gues tingxie doesnt matter lah. HAHAHA. Excuses excuse marie. Omg, you suck lah.

I HATE SCHOOL. I HATE STRESS.

But on a lighter note, it's fabric shopping with Isabel tmrw! I love that barbie girl lah! :D

OUR COSTUME IS ROCKINGGGGGG.
I'M HIGHH.

I missed you, youve been far away for far too long.

I dont know what to blog about. My msn's mood swinging at me now. Dammit. The tailor's coming tmr for the Danceworks! costume. Damnn, i dont want lah. Pfft, make me depressed only. MARIE LEE YOU FAT ASS, GO LOSE SOME WEIGHT LAH.

Yanling and Isabel are barbie girls. HAHA, you two retards lah.

I hate you!

I wish you knew i was there.

I dont wanna blog about school. After Animagine was studying at Bishan Library. Managed to complete Math hmk. : DD Jiaher allows me to copy hers. Very well done my dearest bimbo. Met mum at about 7 plus-ish had dinner and went home. What a brief description.

I'm not gonna bother doing Art. Cos i'm at absolute loss, and i dont know what Mrs Chua's speaking about because of her wierd slang. I'm not racist btw. Rahh, today's a wierd day. I dont know what i'm saying.

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And so i suddenly feel like i've never felt before. The weakness, I feel. Thats overpowering me. Maybe it's just me, making myself feel this way. Or maybe it's you. And now being caught in this distracts me from everything else, i shouldnt be distracted from. It's times like this i hate myself for feeling this way. Now even a single minute spent alone- silent, leads me to thinking. Of you, and of the things i hate being reminded of. So will you come, come and stop this pain tonight? Cause yknow with whats happening now, it's hurting me.

You make me lose my mind.

I'm sick and tired of wearing a smile.

I'm sick, okay i'm better now. I was sick. Thus i didnt go to school, what a conrtradictory from my previous post. Mum wanted me home, so yeahh. I'm bored. I've been sleeping alot. It's good cos i'm just getting back the sleep i've lost. Chem sucks, i spent like a whole lot time memorising the ions and elements. Pfft. Sucks like whooaaaa. School's up tmrw again. I have stupid enrichment animation thing till 245. Why oh why, do we have to go through this? Bahh, i hate it.

Phototaking yesterday didnt go well, being class comm, I HAD to sit first row. Bahh, give me a feeling that i'm short. Cos shorter ones used to sit in primary school. RAHH. Anyway after all these years in school i never ever look good in class photos. I'm so upset. The tailor is coming by tmr, for danceworks. Ahh, i hate taking measurements, it's so demoralising. Okay, time to diet. HAWHAWHAW. I swear, my dieting never works. Cos you arent supposed to enjoying diet, but somehow i do. That means, i'm eating happily. Diets are supposed to be miserable right? HAHAHA, maybe.

I think my brain's screwed. I dont seem to be making sense. Ohwells. I'm so glad, dance recurits are pages full. : D Go dance ensemble! Yeahh, though i almost died that techniques ytd. Okay, i shall stop complaining. Sheesh.

Like finallyyy Rachael!

Dont you know? Youre hurting me so.

Fever!

It's frustrating how i constantly try my hardest to practice what's given to me, but when the real thing comes i go blank. Great example, this afternoon. I've tried so hard mastering my pirouettes okay, I perfect it at home, once, twice, three times. Subsequently everything got worse. Then today at the dance studio, I couldnt do it, at all. I landed wrong leg infront. ): I tell you, i fell like plucking my legs off. So after much practice, i finally could do it. Yeah, what happened next? DOUBLE PIROUETTE. Omg, you will never understand how i felt. Sucks like BAHHH. This happens at tests too, gosh marie you suck lah.

I'm now, officially sick. Nopes, doesnt excuse me from school, nor dance. At least i wont allow myself to. With a fever, a headache, and a big blister i feel like crying out loud. ): Omg lah. Bahh, i feel so stressed now. It's the third week of school and i'm alr dreading it. This sucks, i used to be so nice and happy. Bahh, now i'm stressed and unhappy with my life. !$!@#@!!@!@

I need to destress, lunch tmrw anyone?

Hello, sweetheart.

I shouldve seen this coming.

CCA Orientation today. Perfromance was good, not our best though. Some how without the pressure of public audience i dont do as well. I guess. Then i went for lunch with the dancers. Then later met Rachael and Aly. Hah, after that we met up with Val and Auyong. Walked around orchard aimlessly and then they decided to Bishan. Today's the first time i wanted to leave and go home first, quite funny. So ohwells, i went home bathed and slept. What a boring life i lead. I was suprised myself i could fall asleep, insomnia has become a part of me.

So i guess life's like this and that everything happens for a reason. What's meant to be, will be. And what isnt, will not turn out that way. So accpeting that is a stepping stone for being a happier person. I have never anyway, been a total emo kid. And i guess there's not much use of fretting over it. I'll take things by my stride, and hopefully things will change for the better.

So yall for being so glum today, i guess i was merely tired. : D

I'm incomplete.

CCA Orientation tmr, it's 1130. One our ago i was fretting over what to wear. Right now i'm still at a loss. How now? Perform naked? I aint gonn do that. Bahh, i will find a way. Tmrw's buffet lunch is off! : DDD It's postponed to next Sat. Yeahhhfoooo.

Something happened at dance, and i'm still fuming. Okay, come marie. Breathee.

Yeah, go on, take charge, you are afterall in charge right? No this isnt our thing, its your thing. Yes, no group effort. Not at all. It's all about you, you, you. Everyone wants the best for the group, dont you? I dont think so. And complain about us not being there to help, we are now here to help. No, you refuse. But then again in the first place, you dont even turn up for a single shit. No one to brief us, no one to instruct. Think youre in charge? Think again. Please practice some responsibility, and stop being so childish crying 'How, they dont wanna help me! Mummy!' Ohmy please, no one has time for that. You say we dont help, when we contribute ideas, you say we are troublesome cos we keep changing stuff. It has a whole room to improve, if you dont wanna win, tell us, we'll get you changed. Thanks, bitch and goodbye.

Even when your hope is gone, move along just to make it through.

It's true when they say raining days make people sad. Cos they do, and I've just been extra gloomy since the time i got home. Whatver, lunch with jiaher and Rachael was fun! Bishan library is not the place for rachael to be mann. HAHAHA.

&No, you dont look at me the way you did before.
That hurts me so, seeing you walk out that door.

Your spirit pulls me through.

I'm going through a phase now, acc to mummy. No it's not a phase, Ive been going throuhg this since the day i was born. I'M F-A-T. A big chunk of blobby flabby jiggly fats around my body. ): I'm upset. Rahhh, excercise and eat less Marie. You suck lah.

I'm gonn add smth else on my new year resolution list. To be able to swallow a tablet! : D Unlike the others, they can just pop it in gulp some water and recover. As for me, I have to pund it into powder and then add water and drink it down. Which makes it more hard to gulp down as well. I'm sucha baby i can't stand myself.

I think i need tuition for Maths and Science. Anyone care to offer some help? Mum's signing me up for tuition anyways. So that means less time for me to hang out. Bahh, sadness. My hiccups have been lasting for 3 minutes alr. Anyway, Aly and i are gonna study hard and lose weight this year. YAY YAY YAY. I feel so target-ful. Okay, i dont make sense.

I'm so afraid to show i care.

Your spirit pulls me through.

I'm going through a phase now, acc to mummy. No it's not a phase, Ive been going throuhg this since the day i was born. I'M F-A-T. A big chunk of blobby flabby jiggly fats around my body. ): I'm upset. Rahhh, excercise and eat less Marie. You suck lah.

I'm gonn add smth else on my new year resolution list. To be able to swallow a tablet! : D Unlike the others, they can just pop it in gulp some water and recover. As for me, I have to pund it into powder and then add water and drink it down. Which makes it more hard to gulp down as well. I'm sucha baby i can't stand myself.

I think i need tuition for Maths and Science. Anyone care to offer some help? Mum's signing me up for tuition anyways. So that means less time for me to hang out. Bahh, sadness. My hiccups have been lasting for 3 minutes alr. Anyway, Aly and i are gonna

For the will to carry on.


Sunset today was so nice. : D Nice sunsets makes me happy.

Laoshi is a mean person. She scolded me for braiding my hair in class and then told the whole class not to follow. I was just braiding my hair! I'm so upset. We had PE today. And i am PE rep! Mrs Nics is so nice. : DD We took height and weight. I'm not gonna make myself emo anymore. Excercise, Eat less, Lose weight, Be happy. : D Do you know that if youre heavy boned you minus 3kg? : DDDDD

Dance today was gruelling. Ms Wee lestured us AGAIN. Okay, you arent suprised. Danceworks was, okay i admit i didnt put in enough energy and all. But i was darn tired for PE, Techniques, and lessson earlier. ):

I'm done with the English blogskin! : DDDD

Happy birthday, Wilson.

I guess its over.

I'm happy now! I'm gonna put an end to all these emoshit and be happy!
I'm so gonna forget about missing you.

I'm still wondering about how i'm supposed to have enough energy for tmr, and all the other mondays till danceworks. Lets see, PE in the morning, lessons, extra Lit, Techniques, Danceworks. I'm gonna faint and die i tell you. : / Nvm, i'm sure i'm gonna enjoy still cos afterall its dance. YAY.

My comp is lagging now and it's thanks to mum for asking me to transfer the belly dancing song into her phone. BAHH. I'm still not done with the English blogskin. Like i'm so clueless how it should be done. 40 people in the class, why me? Not that i'm complaining or any of that sort, but i'm so lost. And dangg, to be done by next week, tmr's monday.

Thanks to Alyssa Lim Pei Ning, I'm addicted to Nick Lachey and Westlife now. Three cheers for ol' school. : D

Lovers to friends.

I hate feeling like this. Stab me, so i dont have to go through this.

I want you in my fairytale ending.

I didnt expect any of this to happen. Any of us to end up on the same boat. I dont like feeling like this, i dont like making things so complicating for everyone. & For making you be in such a spot. I never thought i'd spill the beans, I never thought anyone would know. I thought i could keep it hush, I thought i could make things appear better. I dont want us to fall apart, I dont want this to be the way it is. I just hate myself for feeling this way about you.

-

Just when i thought things would turn out better. I got losta things running through my mind. And there I was thinking i could forget abt it, then came more problems. I hate feeling like this.

I can't break free from the things that you do.

School's been okay, and lunches make my day. So after a pretty long lunch at Bishan, again, I went to meet mum. Brought Aunty Jenny to the sinseh and then we went for porridge. Mum says i'm sick cos i'm not having a good appetite and all. But in actual fact i'm just on a diet. : / Mrs Nicholas is taking our height and weight on monday. I dont want. ):

Long car ride home from the sinseh's made me think alot.

So the wierdest part of everything that happened is, people can just forget that anything had actually happened. Funny huh? No, i dont think so because it utterly pisses me off and makes me upset all day. So i was thinking why does everyone care so much about physical appearance? I'm one of those who're obsessed over them, i think we're just built like this. Though i still constantly believe that in every beast there's beatuy, and viceversa depending on the situation. This is the wierd part people seldom see the good in things, but keep complaining and having incontentments about how sucky their lives are. I mean, I'm like this too. But sometimes i wonder why we're constantly like this, without having an ability to not be like this. Oh wells.

She's all broken up inside,
&Feels the need to hide.
Cause missing him crushes her,
But she tells herself to deny.
Already she thinks he's her only one,
But now he says they're done.
She's stuck in this position,
with her broken heart all burned.

A part of me will always be with you.

Day two of school year 2007, alright i must say. Well at least better than expceted. Hah, first four periods of science was spent free. But we had to keep so quiet, so i decided to start writing letters. And also abit of catching up with Lynette. Goshh, she makes me laugh.

I'm still suffering from my headache it's an on and off thing, and it lasted the whole day so far. I dont like. And besides it's raining so havily now, it's getting pretty cold. Not to mention the thunder is freaking me out as well. Sucks to be alone at home. I'm supposed to be at Jakarta with Bigsis for a wedding, but i chose not to go, i guess it's one person less to put up with my PMS. Ohwells.

Lit today was freaky, and going into details will just scare everyone away from my blog. Oh and look what a great friend Rachael Lye is.


I never found the words to say; says:
Ohh dyou know i'mm gonn try to quit bitching!
I never found the words to say; says:
Haha, cool right!
lyelye; just hold my hand, and when the lights go out, you'll understand. says:
omg. are you sure you can, cause i am not gonna get use to it and i know you can;t stop it.
lyelye; just hold my hand, and when the lights go out, you'll understand. says:
HAHA.
I never found the words to say; says:
Ehh! Wet blanket!

Yeahh, i'm trying everyone! Try people! Make yourself a better person! I cant believe this is coming outta me. Hahaha.

Youre the one i think about each day;

Ridin' dirty.

And so i just sat through a whole day of school. Sec two, sec two. Tell yourself youre Sec two, quit playing and think OLD. School was, i dont know. I got sucky teachers this year. My form teacher is a cheena teacher and she's so annoying. Pissing us off on the first day, shit you. But yknow what? I think she wont be able to control us. She keeps insisting that we're 'one big family' now. Nooo, please.

Morning assembly was a dread. Teachers cant get enough of talking mann, haha. New year, new rules. We now have the laboratory pass thingaling. It's totally like how they have school in the states, so much western influence.

So many funny conversations today.

Marie: Omg, she's back from her maternity leave!
Jiaher: Yeah, she's like so scary now, so skinny!
Marie: She looks freaking hot lah!
Jiaher: She's so freaking skinny!
Marie: Yeahh, she lost her boobs.
Jiaher: She lost it to her new born son.

Hahahahaha!
And like half the school has bangs now. Thus mine's going off to the side, ahh, cant believe i thought of trimming it short again. Aiight, forget it. Went to J8 after school, coincedentally met the dudes. Hah, J8's sucha typical hangout.

School keeps me away from the things i hate thinking about. It's good, cos then i'll be a happy kid.

Cos the hardest part of this, is leaving you.

Like a splinter in my thumb; you're not going anywhere.
Not like I care 'cause I've got used to it.
Refuse to quit.
You're like the label in my shirt that keeps scratching at my back;
Then I forget 'cause I've grown immune to it;
Go figure it.

So whatever the fishballs, I fought with dad. Yeah, great way to start the school semester. But heck that, I'm sorry Rachael for making you like so upset today cos i was so quiet. I didnt feel in the mood to be hanging out during that instant. Today's just an exceptionally unhappy day for me. Not unhappy, okay i dont know what word to use.

Jiahui is my happypill. And confiding in her just makes me feel so much better. Thanks much, dear.

HAPPY 2007!

I know i'm kinda late since it's alr 9:37. Yesterday was so fun, yet traumatizing. Okay, i'm not sure what i'm talking about. I'm quite lazy to blog, but i'm racist and people-phobic. No, please dont ask why. ):

First event of 2007! Granny's birthday lunch. We've never had it a lunch thing, but this time it was cos, i dont know either. Whole fam went to this small Hongkong restaurant thing. Then we went to get Mabel and Mummy's new phones, and then shopped around Marina square.

First day of 2007 has been, tiring. Cos i slept at 4, last night. Dont remind me, mama said i had alot of dark circles today, and she wants to boil some herb again. OH MY. Smelly smelly herbs.

New year means, resolutions. And my resolutions are,

1. BE SKINNY
2. Save money! Eat less!
3. Study hard!
4. DANCE HARD.
5. Stop disappointing Daddy. ):
6. STOP THE MOLESTERS.

Pretty good start for the new year right?

Have a jolly 2007 everyone.